emotional

im feeling sad. im feeling emotional. i am torn- am i doing the right thing?
i stopped pumping. yesterday was my last pump. i made the decision and am sticking with it (i think).
i have all intentions of continuing to nurse until tali is 1, or perhaps 15 months, (or forever), but the pumping is finally just wearing on me and its not fun, takes up time, and i have so much milk in my freezer, tali will be drinking breast milk until she's 20 anyhow, so why pump more?
i told jeff i didnt want to stop nursing at 12 months, and that i would continue morning and evening for a few more months, and he gave me a look like i had two heads. is it really that bad? i know, i dont want to be "that mom" that nurses her kid until he is running around, talking, and lifting up her shirt as he asks to have milk...but just a few more months???
tali is my baby (and perhaps my last baby), and i love nursing her. i love the cuddle time. i love the fact that i am the ONLY one who can give her this. when im done, will i be as important in her life anymore?
my friend lori told me that when she stopped nursing, she would brush her daughter's hair at night before bed- maybe that's what i'll start doing. that can be our little special mommy/baby time.
for now, im undecided. at least one more month of that special bond, that special nourishment only a mommy can provide, and maybe a few months more after that.